I have a theory.
There's a bunch of us in the world who want to see things done correctly - "the right way"; then there are those who just want things their way and fuck everybody else who argues with that.
The people who want things their way are always angry at the people who want things done the right way.
That is why people think you're an asshole, because you want things done correctly.
"It's dead, Jim."
If I don't have the hearing aids on, I have no idea Roscko's making all these little noises.
I guess I'm saying, I'm glad he's not holding it against me that I'm deaf.
I'm not sure if "imposter syndrome" is the correct term to describe what I'm feeling most of the time.
I've never felt like I was part of the Deaf community, not really. Growing up mainstreamed meant that I spent my time among the other kids in public education, for the most part. I've learned enough sign language to manage communicating, but I don't get to sign often enough.
I had an unscheduled mental break in 2022 & was forced to reconcile my identity, abilities, and sense of self-worth.
I do not have access to a psychiatrist because they are in short supply in Ontario. I am eternally grateful to my partner for listening to me deconstruct my entire life in an effort to put it back together. I suppose this is why I now consider myself to be autistic first, deaf second.
