Triggers

In lieu of speaking with a psycho-therapist, I've been working on myself. It is possible I'm carrying "childhood trauma" from 1) being undiagnosed autistic and 2) hearing impaired. I am trying to identify triggers, or pain points in my life that have contributed to how I react to things today. I say react, because there are times I feel absolutely tranquil. That only happens when I don't have to interact with normal people.
* People who dismiss mental health under the guise of toxic positivity, or even worse religion (pray the disability away) - wishing on a miracle from a saviour which will never happen. BTW If I ever find out who sent Jehovah's Witnesses to my apartment, you're going to get a stern talking to.
* Ableism - too often there is dismissal of the issue entirely by the normal person. It doesn't affect them, so how can it possibly affect others? I have been nailed by this one so many times, I've lost count.
* Quit minimizing the trauma. By that I mean when I tell you that something has changed in my brain and I feel "broken", don't tell me to "grow up" or "just find another job". If I wasn't struggling, I would be doing those things already.
* The level of disrespect and rudeness displayed by people is on the rise. Was questioning myself whether I was becoming agoraphobic. I don't think that's what it is. I think people are just plain fucking rude these days.
* Emerging from a period of anxiety thanks to the COVID epidemic took time. I'm better now but still broken.

No Faith

I have no faith in corporations anymore. Absolutely zero. I say this as a hard of hearing person who has given up trying to work with "normal people."

Your Bong

♪ And you can tell ev'ryody
This is your bong
It may be quite stinky
Now that's it done
I hope you don't mind
that I have to grind
Some more wacky Kush
How wonderful life is
With Weed in the world ♫

(Apologies to Elton & Bernie.)

PSA

The remaining piles of dirt, gravel, ice and snow on the ground has an official term: Snirt.

Healthcare

Any government that demands taxes from their populace and doesn't provide healthcare has no business in government.

Normies

I seem to recall years ago, being asked why I was just sitting in place, staring off into space. Apparently I would do that quite often - I still catch myself doing this. Wasn't until many years later it clicked, that it might be related to this "autistic behaviour" I display from time to time. It seems to me that allistic folks - normies - are often unable to sit quietly with their thoughts. Perhaps hearing people MUST have some noise in their environment, or they go mad.

Following that, people seem to look at me like I'm the strange one for just sitting quietly, not bothering anyone?