Triggers

In lieu of speaking with a psycho-therapist, I've been working on myself. It is possible I'm carrying "childhood trauma" from 1) being undiagnosed autistic and 2) hearing impaired. I am trying to identify triggers, or pain points in my life that have contributed to how I react to things today. I say react, because there are times I feel absolutely tranquil. That only happens when I don't have to interact with normal people.
* People who dismiss mental health under the guise of toxic positivity, or even worse religion (pray the disability away) - wishing on a miracle from a saviour which will never happen. BTW If I ever find out who sent Jehovah's Witnesses to my apartment, you're going to get a stern talking to.
* Ableism - too often there is dismissal of the issue entirely by the normal person. It doesn't affect them, so how can it possibly affect others? I have been nailed by this one so many times, I've lost count.
* Quit minimizing the trauma. By that I mean when I tell you that something has changed in my brain and I feel "broken", don't tell me to "grow up" or "just find another job". If I wasn't struggling, I would be doing those things already.
* The level of disrespect and rudeness displayed by people is on the rise. Was questioning myself whether I was becoming agoraphobic. I don't think that's what it is. I think people are just plain fucking rude these days.
* Emerging from a period of anxiety thanks to the COVID epidemic took time. I'm better now but still broken.